“If you want to move, I’ll move. If you want to stay, I’ll stay”
After spending a rare weekend together in Albany for a friend’s wedding, that was the answer I recieved when I asked the fellow snoring to my right how he felt about moving. Based on the fact that he was virtually homeless with no job and I was at a dead end part time job , that may have been the most unselfish answer he’s ever given me.
I have never been happier with any decision in my life.
On July 13th, I borrowed $100 bucks from my reluctant mother, rented a truck, packed up and moved to Decatur, Ga. It was a tough start, but nothing worth having comes easy.
I’ve lost some friends. Reasons ranging from immaturity, inability to reciprocate communication attempts, and not being able to put personal feelings aside to be a true friend. But I’ve made a few new associates as well.
Us? We had……talks. Just honest open talks that I usually run from. Clearing the air, discussing our issues, making a plan of action and sticking to it. It’s all or nothing. And we’ve had nothing for a while now.
But most important of all, I am educating myself to do what I love and that makes me feel….happy. I was stressed so long, I forgot how happy felt.
I keep getting asked why Im doing this. Why I didn’t stay with my parents, why I “choose to struggle”.
My question is why should I compromise my attainable dreams for a constant threat of taking away my stability?
If you could live easy…as long as you did exactly what someone said and lived a life they wanted you to….would you? You learned what they wanted you to, dated who they wanted you to, lived your life to please them…..would it be worth it? Especially as you watch someone you love slowly unravel due to circumstances?
It wasn’t worth it to me.
But this is. Going to school, working, fixing up the house. Having a life of my own. Making my own decisions. Meeting new people. Adjusting to a new life.
It isn’t perfect. But i love it. I wake up and go to bed happy. Even though it’s on the floor because we haven’t bought a bed yet.
My life is a perfect imperfection.